If you want to forget all your other troubles, wear too tight shoes

I'm back! Back in aboriginal land, back in country i love. But its not so much fun this time and its only because of my stupidness. Game here rushing too much, didn't think like one adult should do before doing big step like this and i just game. Anyways i have no money, no job, nowhere to live, nothing to eat....it seems quite few problems. And yes I'm wearing too tight shoes to forget about all these problems i have at the moment. And guess what it doesn't help much...just having more problems. But i believe i will come out of this situation like i did when i had same experience in Ireland on my first year. I promised to myself i never will be in this position again, that i will do everything to avoid this but i didn't, i didn't keep my promise to myself. I'm bit sad.....

But i had a surf already, i met couple of old good friends again, i saw Sydney opera house (one of the things from my list i wanted to do here) and these old good friends been taking care of me so far, they are the best!!!!

she's coming home....she's coming home

well .....i had really busy trip byron to darwin and even more busy two weeks in bali.....will update very soon...at the moment in kuala lumpur waiting my flight home...see u soon!!!!

Last Night!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYcqmUHiHsE

this the video of the year

now its time....just last night in Byron and then I'm already discovering completely new side of Australia, outback, far far away! Thank you all my friends being my friends! Will always remember this awesome time here with you...

everything is backed, i have for sure too many things. 10 pairs of shoes, back bag full of clothes and then another bag full of clothes, two boxes full of other stuff i might need, like chargers, body lotions, papers, Cd's, sunscreens, tampons, hair clips, creams and dressings for my foot etc etc...i like to think i might need them and because I'm with car and its mine, why not to drag them with me. Will have this little garage sale at Darwin. By this time i should know exactly what i need or what i don't need. When u staying in one place for long time then u just collecting so many stuff without noticing. My car is my baby at the moment, it have to drive me for 5000 km, it have to give me roof for couple of weeks, i have to make sure i treat my baby good as well.

Staying home tonight, made cheesecake to my family, drinking little bit rum, chillin, watching movies.....

who's gonna shut my name now? who's gonna go for surf with me now? who's gonna go out with me and get pissed now? who's gonna make my car sandy now?......

Last day in Byron Bay..

One more day in this paradise and then i will be on the road again. So exciting, so scary. Cant wait when I'm finally on this big road trip, don't wanna leave....so many different feelings. No way I'm leaving this place without saying properly goodbye. I had big leaving party on Saturday, now i just have to do last bub growling and last walk through town. Things are almost packed, car is fixed, mind never will be ready for this. Its like leaving home, only difference u never know if u really coming back here. I hope i do and I'll do everything this to happen. All party pics will be in facebook. As a leaving present for myself i made a movie about Byron....

Eastern Bunny and tears

I had to go back to doctors, to check my foot, but before that i already but diagnose myself and started with another treatment, cos i wasn't really agree what doctor said. Now after paying another 85 dollar, doctor agreed with my diagnose and gave me new prescription. I have fungus. How simple is that. But its really bad one, its blistering and skin under my foot is keep peeling off. Even its itchy as hell during the night and burning a lot, and sometimes bit hurting I'm happy, i know what it is and how to treat it. So should be fine very soon....

Eastern chocolate bunny waited me in my room after i had my confession to my dear friend how sad i am to leave and showed my tears to him. They weren't only sad tears they were also happy tears. I'm happy i had opportunity to live here, to know these people, to get so many good friends, to eat so many Tim-tam's and magnums, work with awesome people, to learn surf, to swim with dolphins, to spend long days on the beach, to smoke weed, to wear bikinis all day long, to get to know some assholes and some really nice guys, to drink lots of beer....all this made me happy, simple things but obviously they are important things.

Today I'm going surfing, and yes i really don't care at the moment how my fungus will react on this, been out of water more then enough, like 4 days, its time to jump in, especially when I'm leaving in few days time. Bring it on girl!

How i spent 85 dollars in 5 minutes?

Like u already know my foot looks pretty bad.... days later it went worse and worse, or more like this weird infection moved location. When before it was on my foot then now its under my foot and this big painful blister is burst by now. It looks more painful it is, but its itchy as hell. So i decided, finally to go to see a doctor. Doctor asked me two questions. 1. What happened? i told him 2. Do u have same tan back home or did u get it from here? eeeee....i even didn't know should i answer for that or not......then he just told me he will prescribe some antibiotics and nurse will but bandage on my foot. 5 minutes to see doctor, two questions, antibiotics prescription and 85 dollars....good i made this travel insurance...i guess.

weird wounds

they never heal, at least it takes double or even longer time to heal then normally. I can clean it or not, i can but medicine on top of it or not, i can swim or not....but the result is always the same. Wound is bigger, ugly, infected, and finally when even the smallest cut u have will heal it will leave one ugly scar. That's why i have hundred more scars i had before coming to OZ.

It was tiny tiny cut from fin two weeks ago. I was happy because it was about to heal with no problems and then just two days ago in the morning waited me nice surprise, and its the itchiest foot ever at the moment. Not really sure what happened.

happiness is a journey....not a destination

i heard it from somewhere and its kinda true isn't it?! all our life we're going somewhere, we're doing something, all our life is one big journey, we think that destination is happiness but we should enjoy our journey...this is what happiness about...

its raining, its dark early, its cold in the evening, its quiet in town during the weekdays...all this letting us know that summer is over and time to take out your wetsuit and jeans. Time to think of moving warmer place, time to switch on heater. me little confused Estonian girl struggling with my journey plan here....should i go or should i stay? most of you guys enjoying spring at the moment, taking out your miniskirts and flip flops...isn't that weird...it makes me think of coming home to see blossoming spring. it would be so amazing, and its not that far just 22 hours in the air.

for real i haven't done anything big here, just living my little Byron Bay life, surfing every day, working little bit every day, drinking little bit every day, finding and losing things, enjoying gigs whenever they have any, drinking coffees with my friends who's coming and going, meeting new people, saying goodbyes to people i already got to know (sometimes even too much), and today thinking its freezing cold outside (like 21 C) im sitting in my room and just watching rain from window...and thinking of YOU, ALL OF YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS!!! Miss u guys!

moving!

I've been in Byron Bay more then 6 months now and been moving here one place to other quite few times. My home been backpackers for few weeks, beach house were we had closest family here and best crew ever, my boss's house out of centre, car on the beach and back together with few old housemates another house....I don't like moving, its always trouble but same time its exciting too. Now I'm settled here in new house for couple of months, but i already have moving thoughts just because my time here will be over soon. It makes me sad, clad, excited...everything u could think. But hey its one part of being traveller. Its not just saying goodbyes all the time to your travel mates and real good friends but its also moving a lot too. I've been traveller who's been staying in one place extremely long anyway and i already think there is so many changes every day, what I'm gonna do when I'm on the road..can i handle this amount of moving and saying goodbyes?! Now i guess its time to say when and where...well i wont promise anything but I'll say end of April and to south-west for month and then most likely home. Whats gonna happen after this?.... who knows...just going with the flow..

1. my first home in Byron - Main Beach Backpacker

2. Beach House with awesome people

Big double bed and live music on the deck

Beautiful Beach House

3. getting ready our automobile home for few days

4. when i lived with my boss

Surfboards are one part of your life here, for everybody

5. one week at Grete's house

6. my newest and last home in Byron, Keats Street House

Inspiring surfing

Today i went for quick surf before work and what i saw....one early twenty's guy was surfing next to me...just not another good surfer next to me, but good surfer with one arm. How inspiring is this?! Don't know what happened with his arm, maybe shark attack. In fact we just had here few days ago shark attack, when one shark decided to taste surfers board. Luckily nobody didn't get hurt just one more board less in this big surfing world. Been here already so long that all these kind of news still doesn't make me to stay out of water, still keep surfing, still keep ignoring fact that i might get bitten by shark.

Estonian Independence Day!!!

Celebrating Estonian Independence Day by making potato salad...me and Grete decided to celebrate this day properly, had plan to make salad like we do on these special occasions back home and were planning to have some vodka shots. I was feeling little bit bad on this day so we didn't make vodka shots, just class of wine. Some friends game over to my house to be witnesses of this celebration and they had opportunity to hear Estonian hymn. Me and Grete were bit shy so we sang that outside, but we were proud. Proud Estonians!!! hip hip hurray!!!

beach on that day, beautiful as usual!

what goes around comes around...

another week is ending in this paradise.....would live this life forever, for real! Every day is one step closer to end of this trip and i discover myself thinking of leaving more and more. Making plans every day, changing them every day. If somebody will ask me what are my plans then i still keep answering "my plan is no plans!" its kinda working but this time i have to make decision about going back home or to stay here for another year. Its quite big decision to make. But i know whatever i do everything will work out good, always! No worries! another week is ending in this paradise.....would live this life forever, for real! One another adventure week is ending. One day i got parking ticket, it made me sad, day after i found 60 $ and ipod, it made me clad. One day i broke my board what made me almost cry, another day we found a bicycle, it made me laugh. Got cheap accommodation for week, got to know that best people to work with and the best boss ever left the place i work at, got my best surf session so far, got smashed by big wave and lost bracelet. What goes around comes around... so true, even if I'm stacked on the roundabout!

another sunset surf session

another night out, Andy and Bella, my first roomy's in Byron and now after two months my roomy's again

You are nothing when you out there!

I had my best surf session last night during the sunset, didn't come out of the water before it went dark and i just couldn't see any waves. Everybody who saw me they actually made me feel even more confident and they didn't keep back with compliments. I feel finally I'm improving!!!! Tomorrow will hit the waves at 7.30 am, oh ahhh haven't been up so early for ages.....grrr

I love sunset surf session most, the view is amazing, nothing can beat this feeling to be in water at this time. U are nothing when u out there!

Few days ago when we had camera girl with us

Sleepwalking or ghost?

Byron is magical, spiritual place - i knew that already before i arrived. I lived for month with my boss because didn't have anywhere else to live. He had recently sad event in his family, his granddad died. Two night later he saw somebody in his room around 4 am and this somebody looked like me. He called my name, but there wasn't any answer, this figure just moved closer and then away again but didn't say anything. He called again couple of times my name because it looked like me. Then he turned lights on and by this time the room was empty. Next day he told me that he thinks that his granddads spirit game to visit him. Then i had de ja vu.....and i told him that apparently something like this happened before. I was living with 10 people before Xmas and in one room there were two German girls. One of these girls granddad died few nights before i did same thing to her. I was sitting on her bed and staring at her without saying anything. Exactly 4 am. She called my name few times, i moved my face closer and farther again and then i just left. I wounder what was this: ghost or something new for me-sleepwalking, never done it before.

thank god we have sunglasses

thank god we have sunglasses and i can think that with them nobody could recognise me. went to beach with borrowed skateboard, on the way back the speed went up too quick and i couldn't stop the board. i jumped off and my board was keep running, towards to the main roundabout. me running straight after board. cars keep driving without seeing my board. one car had little crash with board, no damage tho. me on the roundabout between cars saving the board. drivers blow the horn. embarrassing! took quickly my board, walked away and thought thank god i had sunglasses on

Everything takes longer than you think

I had no plan like that when i game down here, i said to myself and to everybody else i just will go with the flow. But i still imagined that by this time i have seen most of Australia and i have been working much less then now. Everything is different i thought it will be, I worked most of time, and i haven't seen Australia at all. I recon its going with the flow too. I just decided to follow my heart and stay in Byron longer and enjoy surfing. Then i decided to move on whenever i have enough money saved, it suppose to happened few weeks ago but like we all know everything takes longer than u think. Always! I'm staying in Byron Bay and i don't mind at all...........

At the moment sitting in coffee with cool Estonian chick Grete, practising Estonian, enjoying view and coffee, why should i move right know, just little bit more to live a dream....

White's Beach

Beautiful Byron And Around